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Last week, the guy asked why I don’t write anymore these days. For someone who never actually read anything I have written (years ago), he’s pretty observant. I just told him that words don’t come easily to me anymore right now. They even feel foreign.

Being somewhat annoyed at his question, I told myself to start writing a little something every day. Just one or two lines. No matter how corny they would be. Again, he didn’t know about this.

Yesterday was the 5th day. I was tired. I was out of words. I was uninspired. I decided to give up writing. Just like that.

This morning, he suddenly told me to turn on my laptop and start to write something. It shouldn’t be that hard. It’s only hard because you think it’s hard.. (and another 10 minutes of recycled pep talk.)

So, I started to write this. Is it a beginning or an end? I don’t know yet.

Space Oddity was my first Bowie song. I discovered the lyric when I was browsing the net randomly back when I was in college (about 10 years ago). I didn’t even hear the song but the words captured me instantly. The goosebumps that I had when I finally listened it for the first time is still fresh in my memory.
This song means a lot to me because when I first heard it, I was recovering from a betrayal. I was bitter about everything and I was terribly scared about what life had to offer me. And suddenly this 35 year old song came to me out of nowhere.
Ain’t life always gonna be like that? About having the courage to embrace the unknown? Who would have thought that a Bowie’s song would find me? I didn’t even know who David Bowie was before that night.
I’m still terribly sad. I couldn’t listen to his songs yesterday because I knew they would drive me to tears. So, I listened to it this morning on my way to work. I cried and mourned for him but oddly, the songs also made me smile. They made me remember how I used to sing “Oh You Pretty Things” to Kei when she was a tiny baby. They made me remember how I usually howl “Life on Mars” during shower in a very theatrical way. They made me remember how Kei used to ask for the song with an uncle’s blue floating head album cover (Space Oddity). You know, stuff like that.
And all those feelings. The warm tears on my cheek. The saltiness I tasted on my tongue because I was singing, laughing and crying at the same time.. they made me grateful. They made me feel so lucky that I was alive in the time where David Bowie existed.
I must have done something extremely good in my previous life.
See you around, Starman. Thank you.
(illustration by @PlinaGanucheau)


Except being obsessed with the show, I don’t think I have much going on in my life at the moment. I’m obsessed to the point where I started my own business to support me fangirling haha. So, any of you who wants to order custom case for your phones (available for iPhones, most Samsung phones and Xiaomi Mi4i) you can line me at cicipo. Elmo and I have this 2-3 year goal of going to either JIB con or Asylum. We now have Mon on board too. Yay! I think it goes without saying but there’s also Supernatural cases available (DUH!) in case you love the show as much as I do. I got like 4 or 5 of them for myself too. #facepalm

Help out a fangirl here. Thank you! :*