catching up

I guess once you enter real life, you won’t have time to feel suicidal. Well, from time to time, I still think of that, but those thought are usually followed with a checklist of what to be done before I commit suicide, and since it’s friggin long, usually I fall asleep before I could finish it and proceed to my ideal suicide scene.

I’m taking a two weeks leave starting next Wednesday, and work is just crazy nowadays. I can barely remember what I’ve done in these past two weeks except work and Talisa getting naked. Things at home also decide to get on my nerve. The air-conditioner and the water pump aren’t working properly, and guess what? I’ve been driving Grover for these past three weeks even though the brake ain’t working properly. So friggin hardcore. Haven’t got the time to take him to the shop. Haven’t got the time to call the handyman to fix the broken things at home. And so on.

This is why when I’m bloody rich one day, I’m gonna get myself a butler. It seems to be a better investment, compared to marriage. Can we get an amen, hubby?

annica

I couldn’t believe that I’d survived yesterday but hey I did. One day after, living and breathing. Yesterday was the day when every possible thing went wrong. Like, the buckle of my favorite bag suddenly just fell down and broke. My favorite blazer got stuck into some sharp edged and torn. Got into a fight with mom. Got into a fight with the guy, resulting no concert permission for the mean time. Caught the flu virus. Hmm.. what else? 

Watched a dog died. 

The dog was getting blueish. The vet tried everything possible nothing worked. 

I still cried even after the owner took the body home. I cried when I drove home. I cried at home. I cried for like 6 hours non stop.  Talk about being overreacted. Tsk. 

Well, as they said, nothing is permanent. We let go of our old things to make room for the new ones. Mother nature does it too. 

Now, I want hugs, please. 

there’s no word stronger than love

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”

- Dr. Seuss

I chant this as much as I chant om mani padme hum. At times, when being put into action, it does help me to get through the day. After all, life is too short to waste it on people who don’t matter.

And these people are among the ones who matter. A lot. :)

#UltahInuJKT